will someone please share with me how this is done?
i suck at it.
i don't even do that much. but apparently its too much.
how do i keep the house clean and cook meals and edit pictures and exercise and do my hair and read photography books and edit pictures and give my husband attention and have a social life and potty train my son and edit pictures and be a good mom and e-mail people back and edit even more pictures?
how?
what happens when jaxon starts school? what happens when i have more than one kid to worry about? what happens when there is soccer practice, dentist and doctor appts, back to school night? what happens when my kids are older and i still can't figure out how to manage dinner and actually eat it at the kitchen table?
some people do photography with 5 young kids. some people are even self taught like me and manage to do it. some people even go to school and have another job and do photography. some people are amazing. i am not.
its so hard to not be disappointed in myself.
i am not good enough. andrew does everything. we go out to eat. i never make dinner. i am not what a wife should be. i do nothing that i should do. i want to be everything, do everything. i can't. and it bothers me that some people can.
yes, this is a pity party. i'm having a big fat pity party on my blog. sue me!
i don't need to hear these things aren't true. because no matter what, they are true. i know it.
5 comments:
lol i know how you feel except the editing photos part. but life is hard but well worth it.
one day at a time. and when the house is a mess and bellies are full of french fries instead of grilled chicken, just be grateful to have each other. there is always time for the less important things like cooking and cleaning. make time for the most important things, being with jax and andy and loving them.
Welcome to the life of motherhood. A lot of us feel the same way. Don't beat yourself up. It's true. Soon enough, your kids will be grown and leaving home. If you just do the best you can, don't worry about the rest. You are great and I love you just the way you are. Mom
Let Go! Let go of your "wants". Do what needs to be done and take care of your family. Let go of everything else. Say No! I haven't updated my blog in months.I work out 2 or 3 times a week instead of 5. There are other things that are more important. And a schedule but also be flexable. Blow outs happen. For 5 mins in the morning. Pray and think to yourself about how you want to feel when you go to bed that night. Do what you need to in order to go to bed with a smile on your face.
I agree with Veronica although I am a horrible example of it. I am grateful to have gone part time, but I still don't cook - Nate does. I clean, but not like I should. I have some balance but then I realize how long its been since I wrote my grandma or just played with my little girl, or cleaned up a room just because it feels better to accomplish something. I think that there has to be an eaiser way to do photography and be a mom. Its a balance definitly but somewhere the $ needs to balance the time and hopefully get to a place that there's not such a pressure for you to do so many shoots. :) We all love ya Alecia and know how you feel. Its just a crazy thing trying to do everything for everyone and not feeling successful at anything. Yep, been there and I always will be. But everyonce in a while I take a deep breath and think what's worth my time for 20 minutes? Don't do pictures when my little girls awake, or for 1 weekend. I don't know, its hard and we somehow make it through together.
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