I am reading a book called the Kite Runner. It's a horribly sad book. But it's good, and I recommend it (if you don't mind some bad language here and there.) In one part of the book, which is actually one of the lesser sad parts, it's about a couple who cannot have a baby. They try everything, but the wife is infertile.
I thought about that for a long minute.
What would that be like? To not be able to have a child. I felt so sad about it. Then I felt sick about it. That really happens to people all the time. And then there is me, who tries one single time to conceive, and BAM, there it is. Or there HE is. How lucky am I? I didn't even realize it.
All I ever do is complain, I swear. How being a Mom is so hard. So limiting. So exhausting. So monotonous. I am horrible. Truly.
I thought for one minute what it would be like to not have Jaxon. Ever. To try and try and try but never have him. I wanted to cry.
I am so glad I have that gift. I am so glad to be a Mom. It is the best gift I have been given. Life. The best gift you can give. Life. I can create a life. WOW!
I have such a precious, sweet little boy who was sent to me straight from heaven. I have no right to ever complain!! So what if we are poor. So what if we don't own a home. So what if we are up to our ears in debt. Really, those things don't matter. Family matters.
I am going to work better at being a Mom. Does that mean I will start cooking?? I guess I will try harder to TRY. But, thanks to this book, my priorities in life were put back into perspective for me. Motherhood is the most important thing I can be doing right now. It's not always fun. And it is very hard sometimes. But, I swear if I had to go without that Jax, or holding a newborn in my arms, I would die.
I think the world is dumb. They look at Motherhood as a burden, almost as a hindrance. They want us to think that there are more important things in life. Like money, careers, self satisfaction, "experiencing the world". Nothing is more important or special than creating a life.
Amen.
The next time I try to drown myself in self-pity about how hard and repetitious daily life is being a MOM and house-wife I will think of The Kite Runner. Or the next time I hate my body because of the baby belly flab that will never go away, I will hopefully remind myself of The Kite Runner.
It's funny that this sudden realization came about a day before Mothers Day! Fancy that!
MOMS: YOU FREAKIN ROCK.
KIDS: LOVE YOUR MAMAS.
DADS: YOU'RE KINDA COOL TOO, I GUESS.
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!
7 comments:
I had one of those momments, or lets say years as we tried to get Kynley here. Kelton came like you said BAM and he was here. It made me fully apprieciate how precious creating a life really is. You are right motherhood is the only thing that matters and when you want that and can't have that it HURTS SO bad!! We are so lucky to be able to have children even though sometimes just like you said it is the hardest thing ever. Thanks for this post and that book has a movie that I watched and it was way good-
AMEN sista. So hard to keep that perspective day in and day out isnt it? Thanks for refreshing my memory!
Wow Alecia-you are definitely not the 12 year old Beehive I remember anymore. You are so wise and a great inspiration. Keep it up!!!
Amen, Happy mother's day. You rock!
Does that mean your pregnant? ;)
nope. not pregnant!! :)
Oh that is a fantastic post. Thanks for the reminder. It gets hard a lot...more than sometimes, but look back at the baby pictures when they were first born and remember when they were born and it will bring tears to your eyes. That is special. Thank you for this post. You are awesome.
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