The best feeling

I think I finally realized what the best feeling in the whole world is. And it made me cry a little.
It is being needed by someone. And realizing that that person needs you the most.
I just think it feels so great to know that Jaxon prefers me over anyone else in the world. (Even my mom, who to me has always been my biggest source of comfort.) When he is sick, scared, sad, tired, he always wants me. And only me. And usually, I am the only person that can make him feel safe and calm. (Well, Andrew can sometimes do the job too.)

No one has ever made feel as important as Jax can. To him, I am the best thing in the world! I don't have to look good, or try to be anything or anyone else. He just loves ME.

It means the world to me to see him reach his arms out towards me. I just can't believe it's me he wants. I wish I could tell him that I'm really not that great, and there are a lot more people who are more qualified for being a better mom. I wish I could tell him that I really don't know what I am doing and sometimes I am just as confused and scared as he is. But he always depends on me to feel safe. He trusts me. He is so sweet and innocent, and just puts his whole life and trust into my hands. He believes in me. Thanks, Jax!

I love that little man.