SO MAD

I'm sooooo mad right now. And i'm sure whoever made me mad is reading this right now. so  GOOD.   and i should probably cool down before i write this, but this is ME and this is how i express myself. deal with it.

lets get a few things  straight:

-i am HUMAN. I have feelings. sometimes feelings that aren't right. but i have them, and i feel the need to express them. i hate pretending like everything is fine when i don't feel fine, SO i write about it.

- pregnancy hormones are REAL. maybe a man wrote that? maybe it was a person who can't ever get pregnant?? i don't know. whoever it is , DO NOT tell me how i should act, or how i should feel.

-there was a WARNING. i said this post is a  sad , complaining post. if you are such a perfect optimist, then you should have stopped reading right there. sometimes , people complain. sometimes its irrational, but they do it. and if its their blog, well, leave them to it.

-OF COURSE i will love my second son. are you kidding? i was disappointed to find out the gender. that has absolutely NOTHING to do with how much i will love him. who are you to tell me how to love my baby?

- these are all my blogs. are they not? MY BLOGS. that means i can put what i want, and you better believe i will.  i am not forcing it down your throat. if you don't like it, DON'T READ IT! if you don't agree with what i write, please don't say anything at all. i would greatly appreciate that. you don't have to agree with me, but do it silently, to yourself. because i really don't need to know about it.

thanks to everyone who tries to nicely understand my human reactions. thanks for not judging me based on how i feel at certain times. anyone else- if you don't like me or the way i feel, then feel free to stop reading my blog. i'm not making you do it.

i am trying to decide if i should make that blog private. it is mainly for me to remember. the good and the bad that makes up ME. apparently some people can't handle that.


????