Jaskin

 (jaskin: jaxon's name for himself)

I've been feeling crappy for the past couple of days. so crappy, i had to cancel a bridals session. (dangit!) i don't dare assume it could mean anything (if you know what i mean). infact, i am pretty sure it's just a case of the flu or something, because today i'm feeling all achy.

anyway, so yesterday jax & i got in the car, (yes, we have our car back, for a few days that is. our bro-in-law lent us a beater truck, andy's dad bought a new alternator for it, & andy's uncle put it in for us! we are lucky! but today it's showing signs of breaking down again. it's so weird to drive places during the day. it feels like i am cheating, and once i get there i feel no reward like i did when we would walk! weird! i bet this is the longest in parenthesis sentence you've ever read. me too.)

SO.. we went to the park. this park is lovely. i mean lovely. the trees make it look heavenly. ESPECIALLY during certain times of day, like when the sun is rising & setting. and since i never get enough pictures of jaxon (haha, isn't that a big fat joke), thats what we did.
this kid is the cutest thing ever. he makes me laugh & i'm lucky to have him.

he looks so much like his dad right here it's not even funny. it even frightens me a bit. he's NEVER really looked like his dad. but here's the proof that he is a talbot.

ok, question.
If someone asked you what color his eyes were, what would you say?
his eyes are EVERY color, do they have a name for that?

happy mothers day.

i wish everyday could be mothers day.

andrew has been babying me the whole day. it's been fabulous. i got to sleep in, which of course is one of the most precious gifts you can give me.

but the night before we went on a fabulous date (we needed it SO bad) (thanks tyler & monica for watching jax!)

andrew has been taking full care of jaxon, and dishes and laundry. and meals.

he also made me a chocolate cake.

he has not been snappy or irritable. it has been truly divine, and its sad that there are only 46 minutes left of this glorious day.

i am thankful for andy.

we went to his parents house today to have dinner & here he is cutting some flowers.

i love this picture because my camera makes me happy. this is straight of the camera- no editing!

haha, no but i like the picture for other reasons too. he is cutting me fresh roses, and putting the utmost care into it. see his face?

mmmm...roses!

love them!

i have been SICK today, so i didn't take very many pictures.

jaxon, with a little help from andrew, made this growth chart measurement board thing for me.

i should have taken a better picture of it, because it has jax's cute hand print at the bottom of it, but i'm currently fighting a strong urge to vomit right now (i told you, i'm SICK, blah!)

and andrew also got me a calendar white board thing to hang on the wall so i won't be such a space case and forget everything in this crazy busy life of mine lately! he always gets me very logical gifts :)

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ok. i know i complain a lot about being a mom, because it frequently SUCKS. sorry, but true!

it's so much work, holy crap! i never ever ever ever ever ever knew!

but now i know.

being a mom is a 24/7 job. and you don't get paid for it.

there are days i pull my hair out.

there are days i wanna run away.

there are days i want my freedom and youth back.

but

at the end of the day, when i tuck jax into his bed,

and he looks at me, touches my face

and says, "i love you, mama"

it makes it all worth it.

and later, when i sneak in his room to put

his blanket that he always kicks off back on him,

i'll watch him sleep and give him about 15 kisses all over his sweet sleeping face

and right about then

i'll realize that i love this kid more than anything.

i never knew i could love like this.

i have my mom to thank for teaching me unconditional love.

my mom has always done everything for me, and continues to do so.

i am grateful for her example to me.

she always gives her kids her all.

i hope that i can be the same way.

love ya mom!

happy mothers day to all you great moms.

i've never fully appreciated a mothers job.

now i do.

moms are BOMB.

and don't you forget that.

practice.

as you maybe know, i don't ever use flash for my photography..

Well, this last weekend I was part of a boutique &  had my own booth in Richfield, where I had thought about doing indoor portraits of kids.  It was in a basement, so I would have no natural window light..yikes! I found a couple of people who were nice enough to let me borrow their studio lights (thanks guys!) , but was told that they take awhile to master. I decided against that whole thing and I'm glad. Flash photography is not my thing, but someday I'd like to learn. I've seen awesome things done with studio lights. I would definitely need to take a class or have a few months to figure it out myself (since that's what i've done with everything else so far!), if i want to do it the right way and have it look decent.  I wish I could afford those dang classes! they'd really come in handy. oh well, someday!

ANY-WAY.

i thought maybe i could make it work with my off-camera flash, and decided to practice...yeah.. i'm not so good with flash! but i do love this stinky child & though i am quite aware that these look like poop, i thought these were worth sharing. mainly for grandmother purposes, because dang, he sure is a stud!

splash pad!

Wow, this also happened a couple weeks ago..i'm so behind. I've been SOOOO busy with my photography that i've had no time for my own blogging & i hate when that happens! {but yay for photography  business!}

the splash pad IS FINALLY OPEN!!!! yay! now, if the weather could make up its mind, everything will be just dandy..

kate date!

a couple weeks ago, my friend Kate & I went on a date! To Zion! I wanted to go hiking so bad & andrew doesn't really like going to Zion. It was so nice to just have one on one girl time! It was a beautiful hike!!! I loved it!!!